Hey! Where's My Feet?

Willpower. I’ve decided I hate this phrase, at least in how it applies to dieting. It's thrown around a lot, usually by people who are not or never have been fat. “If only she had more willpower, she wouldn’t binge like that.” Usually it’s used to blame a fat person’s obesity on their own weakness... Basically, I think it's bullshit.

Phew... been a couple of weeks since I last posted anything and let me just say - ROLLER COASTER!!!!! So you know how I'm an emotional eater right? Well if that was going to be tested any time, it was during the past two weeks... The morning of the 9th I checked our bank account only to find that Roy's unemployment check was HALF what it should have been - that alone was enough to send me into an eating tailspin! Then later that day I was tooling along minding my own business when, WHAMO. Let's just say it wasn't a very good day.... and to make a long story short, between then & now the loaner car overheated, Julia scratched her cornea & got an ear infection, I have TWO pink eyes, my leg is infected from the accident AND we're still waiting on the other half of that check - good news on that one though, should be here tomorrow and if all goes well, my car will be done Friday!! So as you can see... it wouldn't be any big surprise to see that scale to...

Woot!  13 pounds down and 115 more to go! I’ve lost 13 pounds so far and I can’t tell.  When you’re so overweight, 13 pounds is such a small number – it’s easy to see now how I never noticed if I was gaining or losing weight, 13 pounds could sneak on or off and I’d never know! It was a rough week and the long holiday weekend made it even more hard!  Although I will say, being busy all weekend with activities & such has kept me occupied and not eating as much garbage!  Friday night was a liquid dinner mixed with some massive carpet cleaning – WooHoo!  Saturday, back to cleaning and off to my MIL’s for a delish whole grain spaghetti dinner with 7 layer salad… I would have been just fine with the salad, it was AWESOME!  Sunday… I’ll admit I was a piggy & finished off that salad – is it wrong to eat salad for breakfast?  Oh, I did have a bacon egg bagel from Tim Horton’s too… than half a wrap for lunch and finished the day off with grill pork c...

It’s no wonder there are so many fat asses in America – losing weight is HARD! The weekend was rough, but I made it… and I think I may still have an ounce of sanity left too! Between all the weekend activities, the kids being terrors and Roy being laid up feeling ill on top of the broken back I’m surprised we all came out alive – Sunday was sketchy at best. As you can see in the post below, week 1 results were fairly decent with a 10 pound loss, but it didn’t come easy! I’ve been working on an exercise plan and even that hasn’t been easy… I want to start going to Fit Zone or Jazzercise but with Roy out of commission it makes it hard with little ones. Although, I did see that Jazzercise had a sign for available childcare so maybe that would be feasible – I’ll have to give them a call. Otherwise it’ll be good old fashion walking – wait, walking really isn’t old fashion now is it, it’s pretty hip and current, everyone’s doing it! Then there’s the little things… They’ve always said it’s...

I hate the weekends!  Well, except for when I'm dieting... it sure makes it hard to stay focused when you're busy busy but then again at least I wasn't sitting on my tush all day and was at least working some of it off - right? OK here it is folks, my first Monday weigh in!  And considering all the fun food I had this weekend I'd say I did fairly well... but the first week is always a good one, this will be the challenge week - watch for lots of blogs this week, I'll be channeling my hunger & frustration into the blog instead of by putting food in my mouth. :o) Beginning weight - 303 Today's weight - 293 To date loss = 10 pounds!  Pay no attention to the gnarly looking feet.... those will get pampered later.

Today I indulged. It’s the last day for a fellow employee - she’s moving on to a new chapter in her life and we had cake to wish her well. No I didn’t fall off the wagon, no I didn’t fail on only day 3 – I indulged and I liked it! I’m not usually a cake person but having been deprived of the sweets for 3 days I figured this would be a good way to feed the craving and end the torture – not to mention taming the beast that was brewing inside me from said deprivation. So there. I had my cake & ate it too! Not to worry nay-sayers… I took the smallest piece on the table!

Up & down, up & down just like a yo-yo best describes not only my life long battle with my weight but with probably 95% of Americans. Seriously, I’ve weighed more, I’ve weighed less & I’ve done every diet known to man from a very young age. I remember doing the crazy cabbage soup diet way back in middle school(or maybe it was elementary), although I don’t remember actually eating the soup – but I do remember having to eat something like 10 bananas in one day! I attended my first Weight Watchers meeting when I was in the 9th grade, grapefruit pills in the 11th, Atkins, kombucha tea diet, I even tried making myself throw up – yeah that one wasn’t happening. So why can’t I lose weight? Well I’m an emotional/stress eater… at least I have been over the past 20ish years. As for why I gained so much when I was just a weee child, well I’ll probably have to see a shrink to figure that one out and I just don’t have time for that. Besides, at this point I could care less why I weig...